take my body and play me
that's what I miss
she liked being used
because when he used her she knew what she was for -
most of the time she felt use-less, merely intellectual, another mispelling
all these ideas - what were they good for?
her parents had never seemed to touch her at all.
she sort of vaguely knew that this was because they were so oversexed
that all touch for them was stimulation and in some deranged way they
were protecting her from the not-so-causal sexual abuse they had both
experienced from their parents in their own childhoods
but this had an odd effect
this meant that she walks/traveled/went everywhere inside a cocoon
that she has a shell of untouchability about her and a hunger so deep
that she is easily waylaid (pun intended) and misused
oh the folly of generational anxieties