An Intrinsic Exquisite

systematic indecision

it's ok to be boring

it's ok to be boring and empty

because - you are not really empty on the inside - you are enraptured by the outside - your existence enmeshed in illusion

I stumble into intimacies with outsiders turned inwards - take your shit and shove it back up your pants, sit on it - feel what that is

I can feel love coming
he says he is near
he says I will like him

but I can't see him
I can feel him coming

but I don't know who he is
or when he will come

and I am not a very patient person
as a rule