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and she said she remembered running away many times under the cover of darkness, with her sons and before that with her mother she even sounded surprised that this was the first time in my life I had ever considered running away it was the first time I considered "sneaking" away I had "run away" once before and did again later that final time life was defined by the men I was avoiding, leaving, escaping, approaching or defending maybe all the action in the world is precipitated by women and men are the objects for which, around which, we maintain and create the activities which maintain and create life ever think o' that? |
I couldn't sleep I wanted revenge I could see these people I could see how I had become their victim over and over again in trying
not to be and now I could try and declare revenge, I told myself, won't get me my freedom, to hell with it I don't need to lie to myself about people any more I can try to live with the truth of what I know and yet, and yet I still want revenge I am no Saint, God/dess knows I want revenge even while I abhor its twisted logic |
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