An Intrinsic Exquisite
and why do I need
to be seduced?
is it a bad habit that began when I was 17?
can a woman my age be even interesting/attractive enough for a man to try and seduce her?
is it masochistic to like to be seduced or merely feminine?
is feminine masochistic or is S&M a distortion, a perversion of something basic and valid within human sexual response?
or not a perversion at all but rather, our painless version an evolution and S&M the original, more fundamental permutation?
the first time my heart was utterly broken
I had tons of affairs
and then I loved again
and what I want to know is
the difference is important to me
I can't seem to get comfortable in my life with me
I guess I don't think that I can really fall in love again
I circle around myself and there is nothing at the center because there is no one to share it with
I see all these developed people where I live and they have no friends
and the story that Americans are hopelessly shallow and materialistic
is absolutely true.