An Intrinsic Exquisite

I remember being

14 and dreaming

a man would choose me

I would be desired

there is a hole in my head
from which thoughts sprout
flowers, garderns, jungles

emerge

since everything is its opposite

then the silencing means somewhere
there is intense listening

some terrible misunderstanding has occurred
that has brought us to this pass

or?

everything is perfect
and the pain, isolation, and lack of genuine communication
is?